Months passed

I didn't see the seasons,
I missed the glistening, powder puff snow
that lay on the ground
only fading away at Easter.

Crashing thunder and a deluge
passed me by completely,
new green leaves unfurled without
my usual  acknowledgement.

The sun beat down hot for months on end,
yet I heeded it not.
Summer clung on in warm strong winds,
conkers fell all at once, as if to rush past
the scant attention I gave them.

All I saw was you.
Then I looked up and winter was coming.

Last Day of Maternity Leave

It didnt go to plan,
much was left undone. 
Your arrival tore me in two
and made me the one
to care for you
in every waking hour, 
to mind you with your brother, 
to teach you two to love each other. 

And whilst now i must be torn again
and divide myself between you three, 
my husband and my boys, 
and another thirty three times three, 
I hope the one thing I did not leave undone

was to pass the love, and peace and gentleness
you gave me at your birth
back to you, and to our family.